Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Just Another Woman

She looked at him. Her eyes pleading with him. With quivering lips and a voice unknown to herself she asked him to stop. He did not. With one look at her, he walked out of the small house. She knew he'd come again. The darkness will bring him back but she also knew that the morning light will take him away from her. 
The sun shone brightly outside. She felt the mocking rays on her skin. It was light outside. It was darkness which engulfed her. 
Rolling over to the other side of the bed, she took in the faint smell of his lingering perfume and tears welled into her eyes. She couldn't face him. She couldn't look into his eyes and behave normally. Like a normal secretary. Like whatever happened between them was nothing but an illusion created in her mind. She couldn't look into those blue eyes and pretend to be happy. She had promised herself that she'd never fall for him. All along she knew that this wasn't real. That whatever happened was for 'fun' and nothing was serious. But her heart didn't understand. Never will.
As she parked her car, another car pulled in beside her. The woman in the next car smiled warmly at her. 
Her intercom rang as soon as she sat on the chair. 
"Kriti, please come in." He said and her heart skipped a beat. 
With apprehension in her eyes and expectations in her heart, she moved towards his cabin. She knocked on the door and entered. Inside was the same woman she had met in the parking area. She was still smiling but this time the smile was not for her. It was for the man who was reciprocating with equal warmth, who had yet not noticed her entry, who was different from the man who had spent the night with her. She cleared her throat and both of them looked up.
"Yes, Kriti. Please cancel the meeting scheduled for today. I am taking Riya for shopping. And, let me introduce you to my gorgeous fiancee." he said carelessly. The woman smiled at her. She could not smile back. 
As if on auto-pilot, she nodded and left the room. Not once did he care to look at her.  His voice echoed in her brain. He was engaged. He was no longer hers. "Stop fooling yourself. When was he ever yours?" a voice asked her. The morning light won't take him away from her because the darkness won't bring him to her. Ever. 
She knocked at his cabin door clutching tightly the envelope in her hands. 
"Come in." came his voice.
The grip on the envelope got tighter as she entered the cabin. 
"It was a pleasure working for you, sir, but I am afraid I will have to resign as a better opportunity awaits me." She said in a surprisingly calm voice, placed the envelope which had her resignation letter and turned to leave the room without waiting for his answer.
She'd seen from the corner of her eyes that he was shocked but she couldn't dare to look him in his eyes. She was afraid she'd tell him she loved him and she had more self-respect than that.
Not once did he try to stop her. She loved him. She also knew that this love was for forever. But she also knew that all along she had been just another woman. With a shattered heart but a head held high she walked out of the office, never to return. 

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