Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I want to run away! Seriously!


Life isn't treating me well these days. I have loads of things to say to a lot of people but when I try, I get all lost and I don't understand how to say, what to say to my 'friends'. I have been observing people around me these days and I have learnt one thing: The best way to avoid pain is to stay away.
In the last post, everyone who has commented has told me that sooner or later, I'd get over Him but I don't want to get over him. Never. He's the one I love. Forever and Ever. I learnt to love, to care when He came into my life.
My friend's boyfriend is His best friend and he came down to Dehradun to visit her and I've been having these weird feeling, the feeling of hurt, the feeling of being ignored, the feeling of not being loved. I miss him, I miss him a lot. And, he never understands. I had this weird feeling and I called up my friend, who I had a 'crush' on, and told him that I WANT a boyfriend and I need one and he got angry at me and I got all hyper and now we've stopped talking.
These days, I want to run away. Run away to some place where I don't want to be found. I don't want to talk to people. They've stopped asking me as to what's wrong with me coz it's useless. I don't know what to tell them. I don't know what to say.
No one understands. I have friends who're committed and they talk to each other about their boyfriends and everything and well, I get frustrated. Not that I can't get a boyfriend. I don't want one. It's not about a boyfriend. It's about him. I know I've committed a lot of mistakes, hurt him a lot but hasn't he hurt me?
Daaaahh! I am sorry, this one wasn't supposed to be a rant but that's what it has turned out to be.
I want to run away. Seriously. I feel left alone. FML!

P.S.: I am extremely sorry for not commenting on your posts. I read them, like always.. I just don't know what to write.
Also thank you for being there! :)

40 comments:

suvaiba said...

anu i will not give you moral lectures and stuff but remember that when you run you leave you the you , the you which made him go crazy the you that your parents love.
you are unique and someone meant have a life worth living and not running.
when problems come then the solution's too it takes time but not a life time
:)
i hope you understand
tc
me loooves ya..! :)

Cяystal said...

Even if you don't end up together, kindly remember there's someone better out there, someone who fits besides you in a frame perfectly.
AND, smile. Now.
Me loves you. More than Suvaiba :P

Superrrnickkk...!!!! said...

Sorry... But i am seriously bad at giving advices.. Or consoling for that matter of fact... But i can help here...!!
Challo bhaag chalte hain... Train nahi.. Bus nahi.. Bike cykill aur moped bhi nahi... Typical run away.. By the time you run half a kilometer with me... you would realise that your world was so beautiful serene n life so perfect...!! :D:D And immediately give up the idea and shoo me back...!! Buwahahahaahaha :D:D:D
okie.. PJ tha.. Sorry...
ok am sorry.. I was supposed to say something to comfort but.. Wel.. Like they said above.. Chillax.. Something good and nice is soon comin your way...!! And as far as they so called couples are concerned.. Arey bhaad mein jaane do unko... And look.. There are plenty around to choose from ;) and you can khula line maaro them...!!

Superrrnickkk...!!!! said...

Okie.. Am i was jus trying to be funny.. And you know... Do the pep talk.. Kindly ignore if you get annoyed...!!

Confused Soul said...

awww babe... I know advice at such time would be pointless.. I know how you just want that one.. but let's accept it.. U weren't meant to be.. I'm not telling you go hunting or jump into another relationship.. All I'm telling you is don't lode faith. You'll get someone way better, when it's the RIGHT TIME.. So chill out babe... And for now mera pyaar isn't enough kya? :P

Writing Bee said...

I am sure you were not meant to be. And so the change! And I am sure it means that someone who is a lot lot better and worthy of you is waiting.. Never lose faith. You lose that, you literally lose everything. Definitely out of experience dear! Always there :)

Seяendipity™ said...

The only thing i have to say to you anu is that 'This too shall pass' :):) Smile and Breathe. Let it work itself out :) No big lectures :)

And Me loves you, more than Suvaiba and Crys :P

Anuranjani said...

@Suvaiba: Thanks, re! I know, I can't just run away. But I want to! Me loves ya too! :*

@Crystal:I don't know re! I cannot imagine some one else! I am already smiling. The comments are so sweet. Thank you so much! :*
Love you! :* :*

@Nickkk:Bwhaha! You made me crack up! Seriously. You are sweet! Chalo bhaag chalein! :P
On a serious note, Thank you! :)
Aah! And your comment me really happy! ;)

@Shreya: Arey tera pyaar toh mere poore jeevan ke liye kaafi hai re! ;)
I don't know. Well, maybe what you're saying is true. Maybe not. He's someone who can never be replaced. What do you do when someone knows you better than you know yourself and then that person decides to leave!? Of Course, he is there as my friend, philosopher and my guide but I want more than that. Much, much more than that!
Anyway, thanks for being there. Love you! :*

@Writing Bee: Maybe we were meant to be and this is just God testing the strength of our relationship! ;)
Thank You, nonetheless! :)

@Serendipity: Yeah. Smile and Breath. I really cannot do anything else. Thanks for being there. Matters a lot.
And, I love you too! <3 :*

the other side of me said...

lets RUNaway ;)

Rahul said...

check ur mail...

♫♪♥PhilO♥♪♫ said...

At a point, we all feel like running away. But seriously, fr how long can we do that?
We have to face things sooner or later, right? So why not be strong now, can give your best :)

Things will be fine. Don't worry :) Eat chocolates :D
Take Care :)
*feel good hugz*

Saurabh said...

Ma'am today is Dec 10th and you are no more i don't know *sigh* i never met you in real but you are the only senior whom i know before I joined the university. Dii you'll be missed forever
May your soul rest in Peace.

Pristine said...

Why did you really run away? You were one awesome writer. You always asked me to read your blogs before posting. Love you anu di..ever and ever! <3 :*

Neha Choudhry said...

And so you ran away... Just like that. Why anu :(
There was so much more to be done. I yet had to meet you. Sit and compose a poem together. This thing, of you being gone, isn't gonna sink in. :(
I'll miss you even though I never met you. You were this sweet beautiful girl, so full of life.. Rest in Love and Peace.

suvaiba said...

come back.

rest in peace.
:'(

the other side of me said...

OMG ANu..you'll be missed....you are one of the sweetest blogger that i have ever known..gosh..rest in peace..<3

Vikas said...

miss u jaani...

Confused Soul said...

Anu... I loved you.. I still love you.. I can't believe you're not here.. I miss you and I always will...you're the sweetest soul I've known.. why god why :( .. I want you back NOW :(

Neha Choudhry said...

Happy New Year Anu!

Vikas said...

Happy new year Jaani...
Miss u....

fukachan said...

it's kinda late to reply at this blogpost, but, are you ok now? We may not be alike in some terms but I feel you. I've experienced that situation too, the feeling of wanting to runaway, even until now I still think about it, but hey, the better solution to a problem will always be by facing them. Fighting! :)

Vikas said...

:)

Vikas said...

heyy Jaani :)

2day I got my first salary.. :)
miss u a lott motti >.<
huh :* <3 :)

I do, I do. said...

I never was your friend. But after reading your posts, I'm missing you.

Rest in peace. :')

Anonymous said...

U should'nt have felt guilty coz u did nothing wrong.. That guy did not deserve u.. U were an angel.. and ur friends will always love u.. forever.. :)

Vikas said...

missing u....
kaash tu hoti
sambhaal leti mujhe..!!
:'(

Vikas said...

Happy Birthday jaani..!! :)
miss you.!! :')

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Vikas said...

:) miss u each moment jaani..... :)

srishti sharma said...
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srishti sharma said...

u r missed :)

srishti sharma said...

Happy birthday in advance anu <3 .. bless u,,, wherever u r :) u r missed <3

Neha Choudhry said...

read ur blog again today. missed u a lot all over again... :(

Vikas said...

Happy birthday jaani ;) :)

Dcrafts Vikas said...

:) miss you rotlu ^_^

Dcrafts Vikas said...

happy birthday biharan :D
miss you :')

srishti sharma said...

Happy birthday Anur.. wish u were here :* :)

srishti sharma said...

Happy birthday Anur.. wish u were here :* :)

Anusha Valecha said...

Miss you Anur.

Dcrafts Vikas said...

Miss you biharan :')
Happy birthday :)